Blog,
Staff Camp Rocked.

Everyone on staff seems wonderful to me. We spent two days in the woods, which became a difficult experience. It was a great experience, though everyone was ready to cme home after a whole two days without cell service. The bugs were the worst part and the people were the best.I learned how to build a fire.
I'm also now CPR  certified.

It is wonderful wonderful wonderful. <3 I get my own room today. I'm fairly nervous about the campers coming. I hope this new week does away with most of those nerves.

My Aid came in for school, thank Jesus. <3

Such a life I lead. HAHAI <3

Camp. ???? =D

Blog! Tomorrow is my first day working at camp on the offical. <3 Here are some of the questions that are racing through my head as a prepare for this day of days.

A) Will I be the last to arrive?
B) Where will we sleep?
C) Have I over packed?
D) Have I under packed?
E) What will the girls be like?
F) Should I be scared?
G) Will I be able to do things right?

Most of all...What will I learn form this?

Oh Blog. I trust that God wants this for me. I trust that I will be sent people and things that will make this quite an adveture. I have faith that challenges will be tackled and that this will be a good thing. One Love.

Dearest Blog,

I'm thinking about writing some spoken word for Hear Us Roar.

These words are audible notions of opaque emotion. Rhymes smooth like lotions, because Captin isn't a love potion, and unconsented sex can't heal you of suicidal mental erosion.It is a coward who tries not to remeber his actions so his guilt might reduce. Blames it on those booze blames it on that hard juice. i am anything but  sorry that I will not surrender to that lazy ass exscuse.I have come to see that your actions of sexual assult were nothing if not a result of intellectual abuse....and neglect. like when you put everything i ever ment to you on a tape and hit eject...allowing you to ignore my objection..is pride that woudn't let me go or let you feel  the sting of rejection. I can't spend my life being your personal cheering section.i can forgive but i will never forget. How you cried me about that time you almost killed yourself..and then bcause I didn't want t have sex with you yelled and got upset. should have known, that is what I've kicked myself for... that a laugh when I tried to get way from a hug might lead to you pinning me down on the floor.

This is what I have thus far. It sounds better spoken.

-Hailey

Here is an actual spoken word artist.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuAbGJBvIVY

change

Dear Blog,

Things are ever changing.

One week left until camp starts. =D  I am very pleased. I regret to tell you that my dear friend Cole can no longer work there with me. She is going away to a place called Mercy Ministries. Mercy is a place where you try to heal what ever problem you may have through Christ. Nicole is depressed and I am happy she has this new hope to live on.

I read this book called The Shack. It was wonderful. It is just a great as the Last Lecture: both are on my list of must haves.

Mom's pain is getting worse. I am afraid to leave her here alone. Sometimes she cries out when we are here and I haven't a clue how to make it stop. I don't want t think abut the amout of crying she may do if no one is here to comfort her. I 'm asking God to take care of her. I know that he loves her. If he won't take it away I just pray that he reminds her that he loves her like I love her.

Becca is going away to CMU. She is very much ready to leave. I am happy for her.

Missing Home?

I'm in New Buffalo at the Grand Beach in with my family. It's a block away from Lake Michigan which reminds me of  Superior and how much I miss MQT. I miss it like I miss kindergarden. New and exciting feelings, friends, and love are all things that I find in MQT. I have to keep reminding myself that I am here now and that I shouldn't be mourning for Northern too much. I am glad to be home.

This blog is turning out to be a bit of a bust.

I have a new job- I am now employed by Camp Cavell in Lexington. It is a phenomenal experience. My friend Nicole has a job there as well. I've decided that working together might bring us closer. I hope it stregthens our friendship because it wil be such a wonderful time. If this is not the case, however, we will battle through.

My sister Rebecca is graduating tomorrow. I am not at my friend kyle's at this very moment because I worry about intruding on their "seniority." I am pretty jazzed for tomorrow though.

This devil town makes me feel like I am not myself. I feel far from home. I can't wait t be in mqt again, though I will miss one Lindsay Sparks; Lindsay Sparks being Halverson's old RD and one of the motivated souls I have ever met. I am very excited about WC and cannot wit to see what it is that this year has in store for me. That is mostly how I feel about everyday; I cannot wait to see what life brings. I think what is a matter is that I can predict what is in store to easily here I think I will shake things up tomorrow...even if it is just slightly.