I need to improve my verbal skills.

Dear Blog,
I am so critical of myself it is unreal. .People surely find it annoying. I think I'm going to make a list of my weaknesses and ways to change them. I'm not quite sure if that is at all counter productive.We shall see. One of the reasons I'm so down is because I didn't go to church today. I think I'm going to go on Tuesday. I feel badly though because I want to go so I will start feeling better about my life. I am not in a very good place right now spiritually. I'm going to pray tonight before I go to sleep and hope that will bring God and I closer.

On a lighter note. I want to list some of the things I am thankful for.

Dear God,
Thank you for the following:
Dancing(the best thing ever)
My friends from the Vu
My Mom and Becca (The best friend I have for life)
The fall breeze
Megan P(who saved my life during study group for GN100)  
The ability to improve 
Angie Chavez ( drunk hugs)
House and Hall Gov
Higher Ed. (NMU)
My jobs
The learning process
There are a bunch of others. These just applied to today. =D

Almost forgot.
Here are two ways I'm reaching my goals:
I went to my study group today.
I ran for house president and won.

Here are two ways I need to improve:
I need to become better at speaking to small groups ( today I had a thought I had a really hard time expressing)
I did not work out today.

Here is one more way I am in the process of achieving:
Today I had an idea in hall government and I actually said it aloud. The best part about that is that people did not shoot it down.

Okay so I must do homework now. Thanks for listening. <3

Found this in the corner of my mind.

I saw you today. I saw you smile and I saw you cry.I saw you dance I heard you tell a little lie. When you smiled love, I smiled too. I do my best not to stare directly at the perfection that is you. Instead I look up into the sky.Where I want to see your hopes and dreams but all I can see is shades of blue. Like your eyes on the days the aren't grey or geen.Someday I'll go away and people wil ask me what wonders I've seen.I don't care if they don't understand what I mean, when I tell them I saw you. .
 

Stress.

Hey Blog,

I am really stressed out. I have a Psychology exam tomorrow and I'm falling a bit behind in math. I think I need to spend more time away from the dorm and more time in the library. That is my new strategy. I think i might lower my course load a bit next semester.Anyway, I miss blogging terribly and figured I would give you a shout out before my class.
 I wanted to  be hall secretary. I failed at that. I want to be house President, and now I am doubting my own capabilities because of the competition being created in my suite. I am far to competitive for all of this. I wonder what kind of  direction God's Plan will take me in because it certainly was not  what I was expecting. We shall see won't we.


 HAHAI

Started out Nothing ended about love.

I am nothing. Nothing but dust...to dust I will return. One day my body will burn and ash I will become. I wonder who will be sad as people do. If my death would have an effect on anyone at all. That's when I stop wondering about me. I mostly wonder about who would be there to keep my mother standing and not let her fall.. When I think about leaving my sister it brings me to tears. I couldn't live without but having to leave her is what I fear...the most about leaving this world behind...I have so many goals of all kinds. i want to travel the world and walk where Jesus did.I understand that if i die I could walk with him...but I just want to live, travel and give. I worry about leaving you too my love...but with any luck the lord above will give me many a chance to see your beautiful face. We can dance all night. When I'm with you I don't feel the need to set the pace. I love the way your eyes change color and the way you talk with your hands. I love the curl in your toes and the way you leave your mouth open if you are really thinking....The way that you laugh after everything and how you can't catch me blinking...when your around that's when I live...my love my love...all i want to give.

I haven't a clue about this.