Life,age,spirit.

I need to have a spiritual awakening. I was reflecting on my sins today, and I just do not know what to  do. I am one of those guilty feeling types and sometimes it make me dislike myself. I know that when we sin God doesn't strike us down.If we are truly sorry we can be forgiven.I depened on these principles, I live by them. I think that is the worst kind of sin there is.I wish I knew how to be ingnorant to sin sometimes. Go about living and feeling just fine after I do something that is noted by the church as sin.I cannot. I do not know how to change it. I don't even know if I would if that kind of thing was possible.

I can never seem to get my thinking and my soul n the same place. Mentally I often feel ignorant like a child, even innocent and inexperienced when it comes to important adult things.I feel old in my soul sometimes, just waiting for something more. Then at times I feel old in my thinking, like it's time to be young and free and I am trapted inside a wall of overwhelming responsibility and fear of failure. I am young in my soul at these times, watching the world in all its' wonder, wanting to live,to touch and be touched. Crazy how I can never quite get the two to balance, my mind and my soul. Maybe I should invest in some yoga, or a good spiritual awakening. Conflicted in age. I believe that a person is only as old as they want to be, I have yet to discover what age I am in spirit so I supose this theory is of little use to me.

Alright. Enough complaing. Here is a list of things I am quite thankful for:

My Mom
My Sister
Coach Davis and Drummond
 A strong belief in love
My education
The people who I have been blessed to meet  this year
Forgivness