I am:
Fascinated by almost all aspects of social issues.
A logical thinker
opinionated and open minded
way to concered about being judged
Catholic
A Nasty *name given by agnes because I can go without a shower
my mother's daughter
loud and then silent
awkward
sexual
nervous
loving
hardly ever wearing pants 
rough
forever changing
friendly
attracted to sturdiness and genuine smiles
a leader
a follower
not gracful

The thing that has become quite real to me this year is how much I could change: I could change the world,myself and another person. I am all of these things but like life, they are subject to change.I am undefined in my own mind. Everyday that passes changes who I am and what I will become.Change is what makes me love my life.I am Hailey and happy about it.   

Self Acceptance week left me in thought, as I was sure that it would. Hear Us Roar was an extraordinary event.I think that the message of sexual assault awareness was made loud and clear.It was extremely powerful and the effort that went into it was evident in all kinds of ways.It was the kind of thing that caused me to want to make myself a hard ass.It is unfortunate that I am sometimes so obviously vulnerable and weak.This is a part of myself that I must learn to accept.As I learned from the enlightening quiz, I should work a bit on this entire concept.  

I have the worst fear of returning home. I am surley going to miss MQT.

 Penny is one of my personal hero's. I don't think I have ever met anyone with the same amount of silent strength that she has. She reminds me quite a bit of Nicole.

Chelsea English is another person who is stronger then anyone cares to notice. She has a true sense of self that never fails to amaze me.

More Dubs for Dubs

It's Self-Acceptance Week! Women for Women,my favorite organization, is putting on a number of powerful events that I am beyond excited about.The first is the real student body blog, which I follow. The second is a speech by Megan's Mom, a counselor at Ferris State. Honestly I can't wait to see what this woman has to say. Let's face it, it takes a hell of a lady to raise an intellectual bad ass  like Megan P.The third and possibly most powerful event is a reader's Theater entitled Hear Us Roar. Lina, the woman taking the wheel for this event seems to be have an outrageous amount of passion for the message of sexual assault awareness that this event will radiate.The girls who are reading seem to be really into it and enthusiasm for a project,if used correctly, always leads to a powerful outcome.I cannot wait to see what kind of reactions that self-acceptance week brings back to Dubs  for Dubs and NMU in general.

 I accept myself for who I am.I am happy to be myself and that is what i want for other people. This week will empower people to accept themselves. I hope also that in finding acceptance of ourselves we find a way to accept others for who they are. As always i am hahai..

Life,age,spirit.

I need to have a spiritual awakening. I was reflecting on my sins today, and I just do not know what to  do. I am one of those guilty feeling types and sometimes it make me dislike myself. I know that when we sin God doesn't strike us down.If we are truly sorry we can be forgiven.I depened on these principles, I live by them. I think that is the worst kind of sin there is.I wish I knew how to be ingnorant to sin sometimes. Go about living and feeling just fine after I do something that is noted by the church as sin.I cannot. I do not know how to change it. I don't even know if I would if that kind of thing was possible.

I can never seem to get my thinking and my soul n the same place. Mentally I often feel ignorant like a child, even innocent and inexperienced when it comes to important adult things.I feel old in my soul sometimes, just waiting for something more. Then at times I feel old in my thinking, like it's time to be young and free and I am trapted inside a wall of overwhelming responsibility and fear of failure. I am young in my soul at these times, watching the world in all its' wonder, wanting to live,to touch and be touched. Crazy how I can never quite get the two to balance, my mind and my soul. Maybe I should invest in some yoga, or a good spiritual awakening. Conflicted in age. I believe that a person is only as old as they want to be, I have yet to discover what age I am in spirit so I supose this theory is of little use to me.

Alright. Enough complaing. Here is a list of things I am quite thankful for:

My Mom
My Sister
Coach Davis and Drummond
 A strong belief in love
My education
The people who I have been blessed to meet  this year
Forgivness

The List.

The Olympics are over.Team  USA didn't win the hockey final. Boo. I've put going to the olympics on my bucket list. Not as an athlete of course,but just to be there and be a part  the whole experience.It's on the list. I've also decided to put coaching on my bucket list. I know that isn't a normal "bucket list" item,but I've decided that it is really important that I do it, thus it is one the list.

hahai

dubs for dubs.

I am now a consider myself  a Pepin in a world of fields and sprints.

Explanation: Pepin was my bald soccer coach.The world is vast like a field. We have to sprint and hustle. Go big or Go home.

Long story short.Women for Women had a hair drive and Penny Smith and I shaved our heads for it. Penny is awesome.I was leaning in the direction of not shaving my head, and her decision influenced me enough that I reconsidered. I just wanted to make a difference in a child's life.There is no telling if the simple act of cutting off my hair will actually make a difference, but  I hope it does.Everyone keeps calling me a hero, it's  hard for me to see myself like that. I mean don't get me wrong I want to be a hero, I just have a really hard seeing myself in that way. I really just sat there.

I was on TV. I sounded like a Valley Girl. Note to self : stop saying totally.I'm going to attempt to sound a bit more intelligent as the semester continues.

Women For Women is slowly becoming my favorite organization on campus.I just have this deep belief in what it stands for.It's funny how college does that to people.


Becca thinks I'm a Hippie that cares about peace and changing the world. She says I am turning into someone new. The thing is  that I do not want to be anyone else.I can't be anyone else.I'm just Hailey, the girl who wants to change the world, be accepted and live my her own standards of success. Just me...hahai.

p.s.

The process was kinda gross.    

   

  

 

The results are beautiful. 

HAHAI.

Rebecca

This is Becca. She is my amazing younger sister. She has made me the person I am in so many ways I feel I could never ever write them all down .Being at college has put a whole eight hours between my life and her's. It is outrageously difficult to be without her. I am trying as hard as I can to be there for her through the trials and tribulations of her senior year year of high school, but I feel like I am missing a ton. I think that as we both grow into different people, we are trying desperately to stay close together. I am trying my hardest to develop into someone that people can trust, learn from and have fun with.SHe is the reason I want to be that way. I remember always that she is my first priority.Rebecca is my partner in crime,my best friend. My sister really is my whole world sometimes. I couldn't be there for her today at districts and I'm not sure how I can handle that. Even when she isn't here she is in my laugh and in my heart. She is this huge part of me.We may not always get along and she may want different things out of this life then I do,but at the end of the day we are sisters .She has my heart. <3 forever.