I'm blank.

I need something. I can't figure out just what I need. I just know that something feels like it is missing again. I just don't want to be this blank anymore. I feel so empty and I don't know why.

I think it's love that I want. Love for anything. Love for God I think. I think that the faith is missing again, I need him. I need to feel him in my life. I know that some people aren't spiritual and it is fine with me if they are happy that way, believing in science and that is all. I just can't seem to fit my head around not worshiping God. I think I'm floating some where between Catholicism and Christianity. I'm afraid to walk away from the church. I'm not even sure if that is honestly what I want. I just know that I need more God. I need to love him more. I need to feel that love. I need to live in that.