Lost it.

Today I went all out and lost my self-control. I cried in public again. Tears.

"We are strongest when we are weak." That is what the message was at Water's Edge today. I'm still grasping the concept. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm begging God to love me, then I think I only do that because no one else does. I also think I'm an idiot because people do love me. Why do I need so much validation?  I can't believe I cried. I feel so weak. I feel so vulnerable. I hate that feeling. I hate it.

Breathe. Stretch. Shake.