Dear God.

I thought she said cancer. I heard her. I think she might have been joking, but I thought I heard her say that they were checking her for cancer. I hope to God that I heard her wrong, that she was just getting checked and that she has no reason to believe that she might have a illness that could claim her life so young. I hope she was joking or maybe they were doing something else and she felt like they were checking her for cancer. God, I hope that was it. I'm worried. I hope she is okay. I need her to be okay.

I'd give her friendship up cold turkey if it would save her life.Other people need her far more than I do and I would give her up if it meant her and I were on the same planet for some 50 more years. Sometimes I believe that no one is capable of love like that woman. No one. I know I may be over reacting, but I'm allowed a bit of an over-reaction being that I value her so. I just won't say that I'm having this intense a reaction to something she won't even let bother her too much. Strongest.Person. Ever.

I hope I can feel like an idiot for writing this if I find out what is really happening.I hope I can look at her and see her bright happy eyes with out the look of anxiety. Please.