The roller coaster is always fun.

Wow. Here is the truth about how tonight just went.

9:00 freak out a bit
930 freak out a bit more
10:00 Start holding my phone in hand and looking at it.
10:15 Start excepting all potential realities
10:30 Shed tear number one
10:45 Shed tear numbers 2- 24 and get in the shower
10:50 More Tears
11:00 Wonder how pathetic I am for being quite upset
11:15 Be really really upset for wanting anything as badly as I want this. It might not be healthy this much desire for one potentially amazing experience. 
How will I face the music?
11:23 Decide that the math test I have tomorrow can not wait for tears.College waits for no self-esteem set backs
11:25 Put my hair up. Hear the phone ring. Answer it. Josh!
11:26 Hang Up the Phone. Jump up and down with Agnes.
11:27 Feel like a fool for doubting myself.
11:28 Celebrate with some people outside (quietly) Nearly piss off my RA. Hug her several times.
11:30 Come back to reality. Decide to be myself and hope that how awesome I would be at this shines brighter than these weird ass quirks of mine. Most days I'm thirlled my emotions run about as deep as the sea. Today, I'm just hoping that someone might see what a valuble player of the team I would be. = )